ugh what's wrong?

I can't stop coughing! It's KILLING me! I know I sound like I'm whining here. And, essentially, I am. But if you were coughing so hard you considered ripping your own throat out, well, you would whine too.

My car has been acting up over the last 2 weeks or so. It would be running perfectly and then, either while in motion or at a stop light, it would just shut itself off.

I took it to the Honda dealer today to get an estimate and find out what was wrong. The guy suggested that it had something to do with the ignition switch doohickey-something-or-other. Anyhow, turns out that specifically was an item that was actively being recalled by Honda! I got my car fixed for free, and it turns out the switch-dealie was the problem :) I love serendipity.

I have that to smile about in the face of my coughing.

Almost Well

Well, I have been feeling like crud since Wednesday, and yes, it's official: I had the flu.

fever
chills
body aches
ear pressure
headaches
coughing
expectorating

the nine...

Nice, since I am in California initially for my flu clinic job. Yes, I stabbed 2,500 people to prevent them from gettingthe flu. I, myself, against my better judgement, since I have had the flu in years of getting the flu shot, got the shot this year.

The shot this year is for the wrong STRAIN! Boo.

I am back at work today, after calling out yesterday. I was considering trying to come in anywyas, but looking back, I'm glad I took the day off. I needed it for sure.

Just glad to be part of thre living again.

I made my first official non-smoking savings purchase yesterday- the Leg Magic workout thingy. If you don't know what it is, Google it.

For now, I'm waiting for the clock to strike 4PM, and then I am off to the house for some R&R. Have to go get the car repaired in the AM....

sick, AGAIN! :(

I think I have what I got last year at this time. When I spill out all the diagnoses, you will know why I am not happy camper.

ear infection
sinus infection
tonsillitis
bronchitis
body/head aches

I quit smoking so that this woulddn't happen!

Thank God this is my last night at work, and I can rest for a few days.

I really wish I was in Alaska right now with my friends and enjoying Iditarod festivities.

pots in the fire

So, after about 12 hours of feeling like crap, I can say I am feeling much better after a bowl of soup and a 100 calorie pack of brownies. (five 1"X1" squares, a jip)

Through the laying on couches at work and now here at home, I have been trying to think of more pleasant things other than how nauseated I was and how my abdomen ached like I had just finished 500 crunches from all the vomiting and retching.

I never got a wink of sleep/nap/whatever. I was hoping to catch a little bit of unconsciousness, just to lapse from the misery I was in for just a small moment of time and relief. No dice.

I finally decided to get up, attend to the nursing office in hopes that just being active could make me feeling better. It sort of worked, but not the greatest result. I ended up running to the bathroom again in the middle of the students eating lunch. I'm sure they really would have loved to know that I did that. Glad I didn't say anything.

So after lunch, my coworker Phyllis out of nowhere says that I belong here in California. Left field. According to her there are plenty of places in the area that are affordable. IE: a house that would cost $80,000 in St. Louis would be a mere $500,000 out here. yeah right. I can see the bank man offering me that loan....

Of course, it's always been some retarded dream of mine to live here in California. That's one of the main reasons I jumped at the clinic job. Funny that this thought came up today. I have been having alot of issues lately where the hell I even belong.

Memphis?
St. Louis?
Alaska?
Cali?

Where? I have no foggy idea. There would be a e obstacles I would have to clear before I even thought about making a complete move out here. I hope to stay as long as I can just for the sake of it.

My mother has been hounding me to move back home and going back to school to get my degree. I have no idea. I have some weird feeling that if I left here at the end of May, I would be quitting or giving up somehow.. I hate that feeling, and the last thing I want to do is quit or give up.

I have at least 2 months to think about this before I need to make an ultimate decision once posed by Big Audio Dynamite...Should I stay or should I go?

One of my biggest problems is the fact that I have way too much time on my hands to think about all this stuff. I am going to try and find other means to occupy my time. ANy suggesions?

I'm sick :(

I have been violently throwing up since this morning (mainly missing the toilet or waste can), fighting chills and hot flashes, and preventing myself from falling dead to the ground.

I truly hate being sick. Hopefully, someone can tell me where I can go for urgent care around here, or an ER that doesn't suck.

I sent an email to my CA friends that might know where one of those places is. I am kind of stuck here at work, by myself, and they can't get anyone here to the Blind Center to work for me since it's a holiday.

How sad is it that I am a military veteran, I am at work at a Veteran's Hospital, but I can't be treated here unless I was injured or went into cardiac arrest. I am not in the VA system for healthcare benefits, nor do I qualify.

A sad, sad, sad, sickly day for Sarah. I just hope I can safely either drive home or to an ER nearby.